Work. Plan. Sleep. Fuck Around. Sleep. Work.
June 12, 2008 – 1:01 amI am so frustrated. I can’t seem to get anything done these days. While its unreasonable to expect to get much of anything done on a workday afternoon, it would still be nice to accomplish something.
On any given workday morning I get up at 6:30 and get to work by 7:30. A feeling of motivation and drive fills me as I toil at my work day tasks. As I do this I listen to podcasts and music. I write down ideas for things I want to do and chores that need to get done. I work until 4:00 PM and go home. Most days I get home, make dinner, eat dinner, and doze off for anywhere from 30 minutes to 3 hours. Any remaining time in the evening or night is spent fucking around on the Internet or reading comics. I may also play warcraft or watch TV, but usually I just surf and read. Whatever goals I set for myself that day usually get put off and my energy level is so low that even when I feel the drive, I can’t sustain the activity. Weekends, are more productive, but they’re my weekends, that is when I should have fun not worry about chores and goals.
I really want to cut down on the messing around during the weekdays so that I can enjoy my weekends, but I find that I just don’t have the energy. My latest attempt at weight loss (I’m back on Hoodia and wow does that work) hopefully will capture back some of that energy. But I think the biggest gain will come from sleeping a full 8 hours per night. But it has to be consistent. You can’t expect energy gains if you sleep 8 hours one night, 5 hours the next and 7 hours the night after that. If I have the energy to accomplish my goals, then it just comes down to willpower. Not always my strongest point, but there are tricks to improving your will power and I would rather just have to deal with that alone.
You don’t get a lot of time on a weekday. You only have 24 hours. 8 hours are spent sleeping and 8 more are spend at work. So on the surface you’d think you have 8 hours of free time each workday, but that isn’t true. There are tons of moments where you are losing time and don’t realize it. My “8 hour” workday is actually 10 hours. I’m up at 6:30 and my free time doesn’t start until 4:30 when I get home. I can’t count 4:30-5:00 as free time because it is usually spent getting my shoes off, going to the bathroom, saying hello to the cat and all the “decompressing” stuff we do when we get home. You turn around and a half hour is gone. I’m pretty sure that I can reclaim this time if I immediately change into workout clothes and go for a walk or run. However, I bet that after the exercise I will still burn up a half an hour like before, only later in the evening.
So lets see, the mythical 8 hours of free time has been cut down to 5.5 hours. If I cook an easy dinner, like a microwave diet dinner, I can cook and eat it within 30 minutes. More realistically, I take an hour for cooking and eating. So 5.5 hours is now 4.5 hours. Its safe to say that random daily tasks like brushing my teeth, bathroom breaks, and feeding the cat will eat up that extra half an hour. So 4 hours. That’s all I get. You can do alot in 4 hours, but you have to hustle and things like watching TV and playing games will chew it up like a wood chipper. The trick is to set small realistic goals for each day and follow through on it. I got it all figured out, huh? But yeah, it takes energy and will power. These are the last missing puzzle pieces. I’m not defeated, but damn is it frustrating.
